Gals...Why must i be STRONG? I would sometimes rather be weak but i know i'd hate myself if I'm weak. Hai..this is all so contradictory. Is it unworthy of a man to lament and grudge about his life? Yes! i would think so! I have so many things i should feel fortunate about and ought to really count my blessing but why do i feel this sadness and misery now? AM i pitying myself?? YEs..i think so..this is BAD.

Sigh...Why is my pride and ego SO strong?? I'm a girl and why do i feel like a man sometimes?? and feel that i have to act like a man? This is difficult..all very difficult for me...

Maybe i should not think so much...

Emotionally tired.