Just woke up from a good sleep.

It is a new day and i feel good.

Im strong and i will live beautifully.

Let's live beautifully! Im glad i have found my optimism back!

Gals...Why must i be STRONG? I would sometimes rather be weak but i know i'd hate myself if I'm weak. Hai..this is all so contradictory. Is it unworthy of a man to lament and grudge about his life? Yes! i would think so! I have so many things i should feel fortunate about and ought to really count my blessing but why do i feel this sadness and misery now? AM i pitying myself?? YEs..i think so..this is BAD.

Sigh...Why is my pride and ego SO strong?? I'm a girl and why do i feel like a man sometimes?? and feel that i have to act like a man? This is difficult..all very difficult for me...

Maybe i should not think so much...

Emotionally tired.

Hey gals! haha..it's me again. Thanks for the advice HQ...Obviously you have forgotten how airhead i can be in front of the guy i like.. I went for this interview in which he is one of the interviewee and i gave totally airhead and stupid answers. Totally NOT impressive. HAHA..it's NO wonder why i didnt get into that com.

Anyway, after mulling for quite a while(actually it was like 20 seconds), i think it's no point acting quiet and attitude in front of him. If he likes me, he ought to accept the whole package or else it's meaningless; He didnt like the REAL me to begin with. So, Im cool! BUT, it would be good if we can be frens..haha..cos i share very similar idealogies with him and he is a really positive influence!

AND yes, HQ, we must start mugging! In fact the whole of cb6 should mug together! WE CAN DO IT! WE MUST DO IT!

IT=our dreams and ambitions

Time to hit the books!=)yea!

Hey Shifeng! Thanks for your input!

Yah. Let's skype someday but in the meantime i'll have to go get a mike cos my mike is spoilt. Haha.

Actually Shifeng, it's true that you are quiet and no doubt that can be a very good thing at times but whenever you feel that a situation arises when you have to be a little more talkative, you should by all means, summon your courage and take initiatives and talk it out. Haha. Just like when a situation occur for me to shut up, i should by all means, resist all temptations to even breathe. If you could be a little more talkative and i, a little more quiet, the world will be perfect right? HAha, let's try to make the world perfect.

Truth to be told, staying in a hall with many people ard can be a fun YET complicated affair. If i really want to talk, i think i can talk my days and nights away AND that would mean my studies have to give way. AND, i dont want that so what i should be doing now is to be FOCUSED. Stop my socialising and frenships/connection establishing. ( actually i dun like to talk to people with the sole aim of establishing connections...it will be so fake and insincere..Haha..but this will be topic for another day)

A juicy info: i recently like this guy and this guy likes Girls with attitude, those with a lot of "seh" yet quiet. Not simply flower vases. I think he is describing me 'cept for the quiet part. hAHA. SO, isnt this a GREAT reason for me to tone down...haha!

Till the next time gals! Stay FOCUSED to our DREAMS!

Xiaowei keep talking! I like your talks and philosophisings.

I don't talk much. I don't have much to say. I'm very happy when I'm working with people who talk non-stop. Then there's no awkward silences, I don't have to wreck my brains to think of something intelligent or witty or funny to say.

I don't really like the environment in my current lab cos nobody talks to anybody else when they work unless they need help. Yeah, you should concentrate when you work, but I really miss the lab that I was in when i was in Singapore, everybody listen to radio, talk crap while working. Here it's just the constant loud background noise of ventilators and centrifuges and freezers.

I'm taking a lab class now and we work in groups of 3. I'm so glad that one of my lab partners talk non-stop, even though he talks like he knows everything when he doesn't. I don't mind cos if not the hour-long waiting time will be torturous. The other lab partner is very shy and doesn't say anything and doesn't really participate in our experiments, so it's like he doesn't exist, though we really should make an effort to include him more.. hee

Last point, haha, writing long essay here. I had to do a debate for my Humanities class. 5 people in each team. My team is filled with people who love talking. So when we were discussing arguments, we took forever but it was fun cos they just kept talking crap. And we came up with tricks that made my professor very happy. So yay! And we won the debate even though we knew that the audience will naturally side the other team cos we're arguing for "the abolishment of private property", so double yay!

Anyway the point is, talking more is good. Yes words might hurt others but the percentage of words that hurt others is so low that you should just keep talking. Just think before talking?

Let's skype some day.

Hey gals, suddenly i feel like blogging and here i am. Hope you all dont mind me blogging here as if it is my own blog. hahA.. aiya..Im sure you all wouldn't mind lah. To think again, bloggging is a good outlet for many many things. I think i will blog more often. (if i have the time, haha)

Silence is golden but yet I cant seem to keep my mouth shut. It is extremely frustrating. Gals i just shot off sth that i think i shouldnt have said. This thing that i said is not gossip, rumors or anything that harm anybody. There are just SOME things that req no attention and yet somehow it just came out of my mouth. This is extremely irritating. Hai... im totally irritated with myself. Sometimes being dao and acting cool might prove to be a good thing afterall. At least when im acting cool, stupid and unnecessary stuff wont come out of my mouth. I think i have to keep myself more occupied. Like this, i wont have time to talk mindlessly or aimlessly to people. Tho i like socialising and talking cock, i'd rather do such activites with my close frens and family. HAving said all these, as much as i like joking and being drama, i love it best when i get into a serious and meaningful discussion with people. Hq, let's meet up to play tennis soon(if you are reading this)

TC gals! REM: silence is golden. Chill~